Today was rough.
Today was REALLY long.
TODAY was a reminder to MYSELF just how strong I really am.
But as for today, I owe all my strength & gratitude to those on shift & right where they needed to be today on the chemotherapy floor. It was scary for all of us. A pre-med drug caused the reaction, a reaction that no one had seen from an anti-nausea medication. The pain in my lower back was so bad there was about 5 to 15 seconds I wanted to die. One poor nurse started to say on a scale from 1 being the lowest and…. I said 13!!! This level of pain does not exist on a chart! Doc said morphine NOW & slowly but FINALLY the pain started to subside. My chest was no longer tight & I stopped white knuckling the chair I had been comfortably sitting in 20 minutes prior.
My husband & I have joked about how we don’t do anything small. 1 in a million chance of having a reaction to this particular drug they said… well I owned that 1 in a million BIG TIME!!! 🤣
I don’t ever want a redo of today. I’ll be perfectly happy not ever feeling that level of pain for the rest of my life. Cancer is not for the weak, that much I know after today.
life of B 
i AM SO SORRY THAT TODAY WAS SO BAD, i PRAY THE REST WILL NOT BE AS BAD. i DO LOVE YOU SO MUCH. SHANNON AND I PRAYED FOR YOU TODAY.
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I pray that you don’t ever have anything like that again.
Good god girl.
So freaking scary, I am grateful everyone was where they were supposed to be today to help you thru this.
Love you B
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To the extreme I rock a mic like a vandall
Light up a stage and wax a chump like a candle
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I’m so sorry this is all Happening to you Brandy!!! If I could spare you of it all I Hope you know I would!!! I, amongst Many Others I have asked, are Praying diligently for you and your situation. Casey always tells me that the reason they say you’re “going through” something is because you will eventually Get Through it and onto the Other Side. I know you’ve got an Army of friends and family, including me, that are here now and are willing to help you “get through” this and onto the Other Side… The Brighter Side. I have Mad Respect for You Girl…and LOTS & LOTS of LOVE!!! =)
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